Why not earlier – when Henry was younger? Certainly my recollections would have been much clearer, my emotions that much more raw and real, if you will….
Firstly, Al Gore and I had not invented the internet yet…. (hahaha). At the time, I kept a “Gratefulness Journal”… remember those? Sometimes I was very grateful for a bottle of wine in the larder! I was so immersed and consumed with getting through each day that reaching out to a wider audience did not even occur to me. How could I help others when I had no idea what the hell I was doing?!
I have been thinking about doing this blog for about 2 years. I held back because I wasn’t sure that I wanted to relive it all. It was a confusing, frustrating, heartbreaking (sometimes) and utterly draining (sometimes) experience. It was also joyful, fulfilling and one of the happiest times of my life. I absolutely loved being a stay at home Mom (or domestic goddess, or work without pay technician – although Brian would dispute the pay bit…) I had also been fearful about being “responsible” for others’ problems or experiences…. There are so many out there whose situations are so much more bleak than mine ever was. But – I can only hope that some story or tip that I might be able to pass on might help someone who is going through a similar experience. I had a support system – my husband, my friends who “got it”, and intermittent help from my family. What if you don’t?
You may have noticed that many of my stories have a humorous tilt to them. First of all, I tend to see the funny in many situations – but – and this is a big but – I’m able to laugh at a lot of these old stories because I now know how the story has turned out. Henry is doing very well – we are still married – and we didn’t damage our other child irrevocably in the process (at least, I don’t think we did – I guess we’ll find out if he’s going to therapy in his 30’s….)
Please let anybody know about this little blog if they are struggling with a challenging child. Who knows… it might help!