“Mom?” His voice is shaking – I know he’s crying – or trying really hard not to. “What’s up bud?”
It’s 6 a.m. – I’ve been up for an hour and a half. It’s too early to put out the garbage – I’ll wake up the neighbours with the rumble of the bins. I’m trying not to touch the side of my mouth or the inside of my nose – I have cold sores brewing. How am I doing otherwise? Just peachy…
We’ve gone from a nervous start (at university), to dropping a few courses to lighten the load, to considering dropping out for the semester. Left Brain and I have had several visits for discussions with Henry about his options. I’ve had many more visits with advisors and counsellors to look at alternatives.
Henry was so proud and excited when he started school (was it really just 3 weeks ago?) Then he started doubting himself… Could he do it? Did he make a mistake? Could he handle the load?
Then a Chemistry Lab with an impatient Teaching Assistant, who got mad at him for asking questions (!!!) How does a teacher get mad at a student for asking questions???!!! Isn’t that what we tell our kids to do when they don’t understand something? Isn’t that what teachers are there to do? Teach?!
So… now we’re trying to figure out how Henry can stay at school – because he loves being independent… But he’d have to stay in class – and as he said the other day… “How long are you going to make me suffer through this?” We know we can switch to something else for January – but what do we do in the meantime?
So… we are trying to avert a nervous breakdown in our son. And give him options to make him feel confident and excited again.
And who’s preventing my breakdown, you might ask? Thank God for Left Brain….
difficult decisions to make…..always a balancing act and never a crystal ball to let us know if we are making the right choice…..good luck……
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How heartbreaking for you Christie and for Brian, but most of all Henry. I know how happy you were that Henry took to school like a fish to water….I always like to believe when a door closes God opens a window. I hope you find that window for Henry.
Aunt Cathie xo
Brian and I were a little nervous about this program… But he wanted it and worked hard for it, so we kept our fingers crossed. I’m just worried about his confidence moving forward….
You’re right about that Rina… We continue to talk and discuss options – while he continues to go to school – for the time being…
Christie, you are a great mom….and you will help make the right decision with and for Henry. I am positive of that. Hope to see you Thursday…
We’re definitely working on it! And he sounds better today – he’s talking about other programs with some excitement in his voice. But I have a headache….