This week I’ve been feeling kind of low… I injured my back in yoga this week, and as Left Brain keeps reminding me, “You are turning 53 and we are getting older and you have to expect this kind of thing once in a while…” Whoa, whoa, whoa…. First of all, I’m turning 52 next week, NOT 53…. He has to be reminded once in a while that he did indeed marry a trophy babe – he is waaay older than me – he’s turning 56 this year…. And after making that comment, he was pleasantly surprised by the response time of the EMS team… But back to the injury… I am pissed that I’ve been waylaid for the week, but the blues I’ve been feeling are a little more than that.
So, I tried to figure it out this afternoon – while I cranked the tunes to continue painting the basement TV room – which is basically only used by Son # 1 – Left Brain likes to call it the room where our son has sex in (!!!!) OK – ew… Even if I do acknowledge that in the far reaches of my mind, I don’t need it pointed out to me! I’m repainting because I have to look at this room on my way by to the laundry room! And I might use it occasionally, because Left Brain and I do not always agree on the Netflix selection for the evening – which he maintains has saved our marriage since the kids left in the fall…. But I digress… Back to the tunes – I had Supertramp going (I didn’t realize as a teenager how deep some of those lyrics are!), Phantom of the Opera (because what’s a work session without some show tunes?), and finally, ELO (Electric Light Orchestra for those out there who were born after 1975…). By the way, I challenge anyone not to “air drum” at the beginning of Evil Woman – listen to it again – you can’t do it!!
But while I was working and singing away, my subconscious was figuring out this latest problem. Why have I been so bummed out? While I was out in the car doing errands this morning, I called both of the boys (relax – I have Bluetooth…) And then it hit me. I’m missing them all over again. It’s like September again… I feel like I’m experiencing the Empty Nest all over again. I thought I had re-adjusted – but I guess not. Anyways, just figuring this out made me feel better – and belting out all those old tunes!