I’ve been quiet for some time… It’s been a time of reflection for me. I’ve realized that I now have the time to embark on something big – something I like to call “The I’m Worth It Project” (cue the beautiful sunrise and the sound of angels singing!!) This sounds simple, and something fairly obvious, but it’s not… Like Tiny Fey or Diane Keaton telling us that we’re worth it (Nice ‘n Easy – haha), I’ve finally realized this truth. Actually, it’s a lot nicer and easier to just go to your hairdresser than colouring at home… but I digress… (and give me a break!! Tina and Diane are not colouring their hair at home…)
Being an empty nester at last should be a triumphant celebration. But as you know, it has not felt that way to me. Recently, it was pointed out to me that I’m in a period of redefining my identity. It’s not at all different from someone who has been let go from their job. I feel lost…. But before I can decide what I’m going to do for the rest of my life (yikes!), I need to start feeling better (as in: healthy).
In 2009, I had a hysterectomy. Four months after that, I found an egg-sized growth on my thyroid. (For you fellas out there, that’s an organ on either side of your collarbone that controls metabolism and hormones). It was subsequently removed, and thank goodness, it was not cancerous. So – I had a double hormone whammy. I was thrown into premature menopause. Sound like fun? NOT!!!!
It’s amazing what an insidious thing feeling crappy can be… It creeps up on you day after day – you hardly realize that you don’t feel so hot. But because I’m not being distracted by everybody else’s needs these days, it hit me. I don’t feel good – and I’m tired of not feeling like me.
So – here I go! Back on the Christie horse! Let’s see where this takes me!
Yes you are definitely worth it! I so identify with what you are saying. Kudos to you for having the courage to share your fears and vulnerability – looking forward to reading where this all takes you! xo Lucy
Thanks Lucy!! Should have done this years ago – guess I’m a late bloomer…
You go Girl!!!! Love it!
She was always there, you just didn’t recognize her for awhile. xo